' I have no wish for further experimentation by the palliative care people in their efforts to control my pain. My current program involves taking 30 tablets a day! For months I have been on a roller-coaster of pain made worse by the unwanted side effects of the drugs. Morphine causes constipation - laxatives taken work erratically, often resulting in loss of bowel control in the middle of the night. I have to have a rubber sheet on my bed, like a child who is not yet toilet-trained. Other drugs given to enhance the pain-relieving effects of the morphine have caused me to feel suicidal to the point that I would have blown my head off if I had had a gun'

Suffering, crappin yourself, unable to walk or hug or eat; I'd be first in line for that Tuinal Highball.