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BeachGoat
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1/7/2006 at 11:45 |
One of the reason I gave up for a month is the junior high school shit going on with cliques and flaming, as well as my stuff being altered. Vas has proclaimed a fine and logical case as to why my posts and jounals could not have been changed; I know differently in my heart, but after more than a half century of these stupid battles, I don't have the energy or reason to find every detail and bit of proof. I've asked my son , and he asked me not to include or allude to him. I'm not a programmer. I don't know how. I don't care.
Bottom line; I missed the swarm like an amputation. I have no idea who whapped my shit.
My reaction was wrong in two major ways. The first was that I took my anger and held it for a month or two waiting for a clue as to who might be the culprit, then let loose with both barrels on the wrong person. Sorry, Sex. You volunteered to censor, and I was being censored. I fucked the wrong pooter. Bad goat. I often yell at the innocent.
The second mistake, and by far the worst, was that instead of going to Vas and telling him what was going on so he could watch for indicators or even see signs for himself, I kept it all to myself until I overreacted and removed all my own posts. Had I gone to him in the beginning, he would have done his best, as he always has, to help in any way possible. My experience is that he removes only the most horrible, disruptive evils, and leaves the minor ones as amusements (mhofkp), and ALWAYS does his best for EVERYONE.
I know I have a long history of "mental illness". I would be willing to bet that 4 out of 5 Swarmers would be diagnosed with some minor quirk to make them unique if put through scrutiny. I have a couple of missing years (no shit, my family and friends don't know where I was either), a "UFO" abduction that I don't remember, but the guy who was with me does vividly and is now in an institution (I do have missing time and physical scars), a number of odd paranoias, but I am not insane, delusional, or likely to imagine this shit. However, as a scientist, I must make the following statement, based on logic, and evidence.
I was wrong. Nobody did anything wrong to me here. I was loved and appreciated, and I flipped out for no appearant reason. I fucked up. I am sorry for doing that. I owe an apology to SexNinja and Lord Kahuna. Neither of you deserved for me to jump into your shit for trying to explain to those who just didn't get the whole "let's be grown-ups" thing to newcomers; it wasn't directed at me, and I shouldn't have taken it out of context or as a personal attack.
Most of all, I apologise to you, Vas. I should always come to the host of the party before I puk on the floor and make a scene. You would have given me a nice bucket and a quiet place to lay down.
Let this be a lesson to each and every one of me living in my head.
On 2006-01-07 at 07:05:42, BeachGoat enjoyed furrysex
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1/7/2006 at 14:17 |
4 out of 5 dentists recommend trident gum between brushing.
Welcome back Mr. Ignatowski
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1/7/2006 at 17:55 |
Beachgoat: cliques
Explain.
Sorry, Ghost. You volunteered to censor, and I was being censored.
That was Sexninja, and you weren't.
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1/7/2006 at 19:27 |
Welcome back Beach, there has been a void in the swarm without you here buddy. BTW, if you get any of these memories back about you abduction that would make a cool journal entry.
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1/7/2006 at 22:09 |
yeah the cliques thing is interesting. Basically everyone wants to bask in the glow of vasudeva's red hot balls. I havn't noticed any cliques though
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1/8/2006 at 00:27 |
HOBO: yeah the cliques thing is interesting. Basically everyone wants to bask in the glow of vasudeva's red hot balls. I havn't noticed any cliques though
Red like Rudolph the red nosed Reinderr or red like a toe infection? Because I'm very picky about this.
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1/8/2006 at 02:08 |
I thought Link Swarm was a clique that worshiped vasudeva's red hot balls.
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1/8/2006 at 03:51 |
[/ugh}stared at the twins[ugh]
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1/8/2006 at 04:30 |
thats just plain wrong
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1/8/2006 at 05:28 |
wolfer: thats just plain wrong
Wrong is the new wred.
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BeachGoat
DARTH MENSES Posts: 431 Registered: 10/31/2003 Offline
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1/8/2006 at 06:57 |
Well, like most apologies, that went like shit.
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1/8/2006 at 07:03 |
BeachGoat: Well, like most apologies, that went like shit.
We still love you BG no matter what happens. Now tear off that condom and lets get busy.
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1/8/2006 at 13:05 |
I still want you to explain this 'clique' thing.
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1/9/2006 at 04:03 |
vasudeva: I still want you to explain this 'clique' thing.
Yes exactly, you are very verbose about lots of shit, but sketchy when asked direct questions, or forced to sniff yr own poopstain.
I owe an apology to SexNinja and Lord Kahuna. Neither of you deserved for me to jump into your shit for trying to explain to those who just didn't get the whole "let's be grown-ups" thing to newcomers; it wasn't directed at me, and I shouldn't have taken it out of context or as a personal attack.
I am having a hard time figuring out what you are apologizing about.
THIS?
I know I have a long history of "mental illness".
Playing the hamfisted crazycard is a bad form my man.
I would be willing to bet that 4 out of 5 Swarmers would be diagnosed with some minor quirk to make them unique if put through scrutiny.
How do you qualify this? I don't want to ride on the "SS CRAZYBOAT", thx. (you get 100pts for a nice safe, soft analogy though).
Well, like most apologies, that went like shit.
What exactly do you want, do you want us to hide the pee stain by flipping the sofa cushion, and just let the party continue and ignore the smell?
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1/9/2006 at 04:59 |
I was rather shocked by what you said and did. Came out of left field and caught me by surprise, which is hard for anyone or thing to do because I like to think I'm always on top of things (I am). I don't really care about it now, but being compared to George Bush wasn't exactly pleasant.
I still maintain that no one edited your posts in any way, that you only thought this happened because you were especially paranoid at the time. Take no offense at my assumption here, I've done similar things before. It's easy to jump to conclusions and see things that aren't there when you feel backed into a corner.
I too would like an explanation for this "cliques" business, but I understand if you don't have an answer you feel comfortable putting into words. Everyone has their own personal, private thoughts about this place and the people who reside in it. Don't feel obligated to divulge more about it if you don't want to.
Pussy post^
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1/9/2006 at 07:26  |
Welcome back the creatures say,
We're sorry that you went away,
Now we're glad you back again,
Reach-arounds for all who still pain!!!1!
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1/9/2006 at 21:44 |
yeah pass the Tu sheng peng my brotha
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1/9/2006 at 23:35 |
Cliques. Like how qwerty is internet-buddies with...
OH NEVERMIND LOL.
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government_death_robot: Cliques. Like how qwerty is internet-buddies with...
OH NEVERMIND LOL.
You can be in my clique. We meet for wraps and pedicures twice a month at my favorite day spa.
PM me for details(707)
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ghostrider: government_death_robot: Cliques. Like how qwerty is internet-buddies with...
OH NEVERMIND LOL.
You can be in my clique. We meet for wraps and pedicures twice a month at my favorite day spa.
PM me for details(707)
Sounds very Greek.
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If I come can we have towel fights afterwoods?
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1/10/2006 at 04:19 |
qwerty: If I come can we have towel fights afterwoods?
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concur's
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1/10/2006 at 05:47 |
Well, there you have it!
BG opened up his old hallucinogen acid dripping ass and you fucking mushroom heads stuck your fucking tongues all up in it.
Nobody says inconsiderate behavior like the Alpha Swarmer's of Link Swarm.
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1/12/2006 at 13:26 |
Clique:
sigh, there's no way to do this without having somebody angry, which is the last thing I wanted.
My PERCEPTION is that there is a rather small group of people that select nearly all of the links. This tends to filter out a lot of things that might have broader appeal to others, even those links that are branded "the ghey, WTF, do not want, etc". I have found a percentage of these to be useful, informative, and unexpected. Unfortunately, unless they contain the minimum requirement of mangled bodies or social travesties, they are thrown to the side by the jaded pack that has seen so very much of the sick and horrid.
In addition, the second a newcomer (or even a semi-regular) shows any type of compassion or interest in constructive discourse or inquires about the subject matter, the tendancy is to gang up and rip the poor soul to shreds. I am just as guilty of jumping on this bandwagon as others, because it IS fun to prey on those who lower their guards thinking they are in a house full of human beings.
It looks like a fairly small circle. Some of those are dedicated to the site and put countless hours and positive energy into the Swarm, but others just seem to hang out and wait to pick on others because there's nothing better to do with their lives.
Like I said, that's my PERCEPTION.
To address other comments:
BG:"I would be willing to bet that 4 out of 5 Swarmers would be diagnosed with some minor quirk to make them unique if put through scrutiny."
LK: "How do you qualify this? I don't want to ride on the "SS CRAZYBOAT", thx."
Well, to quote Azron123: "
DrCube:
"HOBO: Dr.cube has puked already!!!!!! "
Negative. It was Kahuna.
*ZOIDBERG VOMITUS*
Yeah, The Kahuna makes funny noises when he pukes on his shoes ( or in this case toes)"
Sorry, but if you're still unable to consume alcohol without vomiting, you, at the very least, have control problems, and I won't even mention the void you must be trying to fill with food. That qualifies as at least a minor quirk. Most human beings have some little pocket full of shit that's less than delightful to examine closely. I aint Jeebus, and I aint preachin'. I'm just saying, before you start up with proclaiming your perfect mental balance, try introspect and self honesty. I don't hold it against myself; I shouldn't hold it against others, as long as they aren't prickish in their denial.
LK:"I am having a hard time figuring out what you are apologizing about."
Specifically, for Kahuna, "i am sick of this Canadian penis war", but since you seem to lack the grace to accept an apology:
LK: "What exactly do you want, do you want us to hide the pee stain by flipping the sofa cushion, and just let the party continue and ignore the smell?"
then nevermind. Go ahead and sit in the stain. I tried.
For Vas:"I have a lot of respect for you, Beachgoat. I've always felt like you get what's going on around here and on top of that add an angle most people can't. I've considered you one of the LinkSwarm elders for as long as I remember. Lately, you've been making me question your commitment to sparklemotion.
This thread, which you broke out of the other thread in order to give it full focus, is embarassing, emotionally hysterical, and totally beneath you."
You were abosolutely right. Sorry. That was stupid and crappy.
For SexNinja: "I was rather shocked by what you said and did. Came out of left field and caught me by surprise, which is hard for anyone or thing to do because I like to think I'm always on top of things (I am). I don't really care about it now, but being compared to George Bush wasn't exactly pleasant."
Totally uncalled for; my fault. I didn't verify a thing through Vas, just jumped to a conclusion and then jumped your shit. Once again, I was totally wrong. I'm sorry, Mr. McDeath.
SexNinja: "Everyone has their own personal, private thoughts about this place and the people who reside in it. Don't feel obligated to divulge more about it if you don't want to."
Dinozoa: "Some people just have a persona at stake. Other people, possibly Beachgoat, certainly myself, are saying exactly what we believe, exactly how we would say it in real life. What is at stake, ie what we are presenting for your judgement, are our real personalities, not our web personalities. If we wanted to make up some Zapple or Qwerty persona, or whatever, we'd find some lame-o forum to do it in. We prefer to think that most of the other people here at Linkswarm are fairly honest and don't care so much if other people see them as they really are, however lame or uninteresting or awesome that may be."
This has been my first experience with any web community. At first I was extremely paranoid about letting any of my personal life come through, but found that I was ineffective as a human being playing a guarded role, so, like an idiot, I let my true colours show. With familiarity comes contempt. None of you see any of my true accomplishments: I have built or repaired hundreds of houses; I can't go anywhere in the two small towns I live in without seeing a place I've put in a shower, a roof, a deck, a set of cabinets, a couple of walls, a fence, etc. I'm never late or sick for work, even when my back pain is so bad I have to literally crawl into work. I've raised a half dozen children successfully, none of which are freeloaders or criminals. I am a rare and valuable assett to my wife; I am, and always have been, a good provider and a thoroughly monogamous spouse, loving and kind. I don't lie or steal. I don't do malicious acts against the innocent, and if, through misinformation or just plain bad judgement I do, I am always quick to apologise, for real, and from my heart. That probably makes me the weak, easily preyed upon, and naive, but it's better than bitter and dead inside. I am proud of who and what I am. I'm not just a burnt out drug sucking balding hippie. I barf up thousands of dollars a year in taxes for those of you that go to school, drive on the highways, use the phonelines, or depend on any of the infrastructure that keeps the houses from burning, the Huns from the gate, and the airplanes in the air. I have done this for over three decades consistantly. None of that gives me any more right to the Earth or the Country or the Interweb (and certainly not the Swarm), but I do tend to get miffed when I PERCIEVE my few remaining rights are infringed.
Vas: "That was Sexninja, and you weren't"
You are correct, I PERCIEVED that I was. I still believe what I saw in my heart, but the evidence tells me otherwise. There's no point in beating a dead horse. I was wrong. I've been wrong before, I'll be wrong again.
Still no battle here, my intention was to apologise.
I'm done.
Thanks
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BeachGoat: My PERCEPTION is that there is a rather small group of people that select nearly all of the links.
That's also fact. The admins plus the Alphas make up the entire pool of people who have a say in what happens to submitted links. It was just one person for a very long time -- me. Evidently, democracies produce mediocracy.
BG:"I would be willing to bet that 4 out of 5 Swarmers would be diagnosed with some minor quirk to make them unique if put through scrutiny."
LK: "How do you qualify this? I don't want to ride on the "SS CRAZYBOAT", thx."
Well, to quote Azron123: "
DrCube:
"HOBO: Dr.cube has puked already!!!!!! "
Negative. It was Kahuna.
*ZOIDBERG VOMITUS*
Yeah, The Kahuna makes funny noises when he pukes on his shoes ( or in this case toes)"
Sorry, but if you're still unable to consume alcohol without vomiting, you, at the very least, have control problems, and I won't even mention the void you must be trying to fill with food. That qualifies as at least a minor quirk.
In all fairness, "I'm fat and I once drank to the point of vomiting" doesn't have quite the clout of "I was abducted by UFOs."
Specifically, for Kahuna, "i am sick of this Canadian penis war", but since you seem to lack the grace to accept an apology:
I'd imagine he's lacking interest in turning a blind eye while you single him out. If you go back through the threads, I think you'll find he never singled you out -- you singled him out when you called it a "Canadian penis war", along with a bit of SexNinja, and Hitler too, if I recall. Then you jumped on Kahuna's ass for posting, all the while decrying the viciousness of being singled out yourself since he informed you were being a drama queen. It's fairly silly.
You are correct, I PERCIEVED that I was. I still believe what I saw in my heart, but the evidence tells me otherwise.
This is just one part of what I don't understand. Both your two main posts in this thread contain self-conflicting statements. "Hi, i know you think i'm crazy, and I am -- totally batshit, in fact, including years-long blackout periods and UFO abductions, but i'm not crazy or anything." "I believe this censorship happened, but I know it didn't."
You either do believe it, or don't. If you know it in your heart, then you believe it, despite what lip service you may pay to "evidence." At this point, I only care because this is a direct accusation of censorship and deception by myself and/or the people I trust to help me run this site, which I won't let go unchallenged.
One more time, for the record: no one here at LS edited your posts. I know you still think so. You're wrong. Computers keep track of everything, so I have no shortage of hard evidence to refer to.
No one has the power to edit your forum threads without it being patently obvious to me and everyone else.
Only Remaining Possibility One: you left yourself logged on somewhere and someone took advantage of it to make new forum posts or edit existing journal entries under your name.
Only Remaining Possibility Two: this site has been compromised, in which case, you'd be doing us all a favor to help point out possible lines of inquiry. I don't take this possibility very seriously, since evidently this compromiser wants to squander his access on editing Beachgoat posts and nothing else. It's also tough because you deleted all the journal entries I could have looked at instead of PMing me the titles of the ones you thought were affected. This is confusing and may look to some as though you deleted the evidence. Luckily, I have DB backups of everything. Let me know if you want to do this. Also let me know if you just regret deleting them and want them restored.
Otherwise, I probably won't bring it up again in public unless someone else does and it seems to bear repeating.
Still no battle here, my intention was to apologise.
I think I'm done here too. There's a lot of this thing that still makes no sense to me, but however sketchy you may have been with this, or however atrociously you may have flipped out, I figure you're probably still the same gentle, well-meaning guy I've figured you were all along, and to continue kicking this into the ground in order to get answers is starting to feel potentially cruel.
Of course, you and Kahuna are now in a switchblade dance-off, so I won't pretend this thread promises zero entertainment value.
But, god, please let all this crap die whenever this thread does. Much more drama and I'm going to develop luscious breasts and a menstrual cycle myself.
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vasudeva: Of course, you and Kahuna are now in a switchblade dance-off, so I won't pretend this thread promises zero entertainment value.
When you're a Jet,
You're a Jet all the way
From your first cigarette
To your last dyin' day.
vasudeva: But, god, please let all this crap die whenever this thread does. Much more drama and I'm going to develop luscious breasts and a menstrual cycle myself.
SRSLY
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