baesparza's journal: I'm a newbie, but not a virgin

I think I'm gonna like it here. I like the screw-this attitude. And, I actually can't remember how I found this site. Oh, well. I feel lucky because my nephew stole my laptop, but I managed to get it back. With the help of my Mother. YES, I get along with my mother. NO, I'm not a Star-Wars collector or a lotion-loving serial killer. Ok, so I like to get a little nasty in the bedroom. My mommie doesn't get to help me there, yuck.

by baesparza 2006-08-04 01:34:00 | 546 reads | 8 comments

baesparza's journal: I have friends.

I am helping my friend, Erin, get through her divorce. Her husband, David, blames me, because I introduced her to my friend, Bryon. When she left her husband, she ran to him. I get that he is angry. David's world is turned upside down. Unfortunately, he didn't listen when Erin said their marriage was in trouble. He was controlling and emotionally abusive. I felt that she shouldn't get into another relationship when she hadn't even finished her marriage, much less with my friend. Anyway, I feel like I'm in a swirling miasma. I act the right way and say the right things, but it makes me tired. I've known my friend, Erin, for over 20 years. Bryon is one of my best friends. I liked David. Perhaps, my anxiety medication blunts the feeling, but I am still afraid it will all go bad. The drama of life. I suppose I will look back and shake my head and mention to someone, remember when? And, they will look at me blankly and wonder at my non-sequitor. But, I want an assurance now. I understand the illusion of control. Someone once mentioned that life would be boring without the drama, and why would I want boring anyway. But, sadness is still there.And, I am scared for them and for myself. I wish I could cry and rid myself of this tension. But, I feel I must be strong.

by baesparza 2006-08-06 02:47:00 | 466 reads | 10 comments

baesparza's journal: How will I know?

I went to an orientation practice for rugby team on Saturday. I was spanked. Spanked hard and put away trashed. I thought, hey, you ain't getting younger, get fit, have some fun. It's hard stuff. But, the guys were awesome. At least they didn't laugh in my face. They are also a social club. The get-together they had afterwards was great, food , beer, recordings of international rugby matches. If you don't hear from me soon, means I'm all cramped up.

by baesparza 2006-08-14 15:28:00 | 667 reads | 20 comments

Beef Cake

Pastry for carnivores.

by Lifez 2006-08-09 19:21:07 | 1625 reads | 15 comments

Odd Musical Instruments Gallery With Sounds

Experimental music clearinghouse Oddmusic has an incredible gallery of unusual instruments including sound samples of the contraptions in action!

by freakbass 2006-08-09 17:00:52 | 1429 reads | 3 comments

Vintage Ads

Hilarious, shocking and creepy advertisements from the past century.

by betterpc 2006-08-09 14:37:11 | 1529 reads | 1 comment