You know M_A_M, You raised a good question in the shoutbox: Why am I doing this?
Short answer: No f#kkin' clue.
As BeachGoat said: Most of us are broken in some way.
It's just part of the human experience.
(Feces HAS been known to occur.)
But being human, the best among us will take those scars and turn them into talent and personality. -Gain strength from them, grow and share.
We are flawed social animals, we NEED people to know it.
Which is why I think, people squander their time and talent on others.
You've all spent ludicrous amounts of mental effort coming up with just the right thing to say on birthday cards, witty comebacks on posts here, thrown bags of money into things like fancy cars, expensive dates, nice clothes, trips to wherever...when really deep down, you just don't see the point, other than to be seen.
Sometimes we find ourselves throwing our all into the void and hoping that just one or two of the thankless meeps we care about will see that we're doing it for them.
But this ends up being a GOOD thing.
Broken people are the ones with the motivation to create community, innovation, art , charity, culture, etc...
The people without scars just aren't invested in the outcomes.
So the way I see it; right now there's nobody other than you and my spoiled rotten offspring in my life (I haven't sucmeepb to the cult of Facebook yet) So my slightly damaged little self has decided to gift the few voices in the ether that have kept me company with the fruits of my (quite possibly misguided) effort to perfect my art and make some kind of mark on the world.
The best gift I can think of giving: Real-Life ADVENTURE and LOOT; Which in my opinion rank up there with with finding true love(citation needed) and finally nailing that m#therf#cking camper that's been sniping the meep out of you on Battlefield.
("Hey XXmeepbaggang$terXX, I got your sorry meep, didn't I?!" -Spanky Jr.)
This'll probably be the only time I do an event this big(for obvious reasons) so all of you that can make it, please come.
Cold, detached sanity could come bursting back in at any time.