Am I being a whiny meep?

this will end in tears

without reading it... yes.

Usually if you have to ask the question, you are already too far gone.

i don't want to break up again not after all i've put into this.

Whoops, sounds like a meep reason to stay together. Do you love her? That'd be a start.

Also, if you aren't getting out much with other people, then you're probably dumping every little thing in your life on her shoulders. Which probably sucks for her.

it sounds like, in part, you cling to her because of a lack of friends. but things will never be the same, and you both are trying all kinds of crazy meep to inspire a relationship that can never be.

you can never go back

Your best bet for the short term and long term is to break up with your girlfriend on good terms. You need to talk with her about the reasons, but leave the opportunity for reconciliation. After that decision, it will be tough, since you don't have many friends, but stick with it. Then start actually socializing, and not just bars, but with situations that you like. Meet other people, get to know them, then perhaps you will find a single woman to date. Remember that there ISN'T a short term answer to this life-long committment, so don't expect it. And not to mimic our current administration, but there shouldn't be a timetable, but you should have goals (ie... this weekend, I'm going to meet two new people, etc.)

On the parallel front, you and your now ex-gf may better understand why you should stay apart or get back together. Keep in touch with her, don't make things worse by fighting when you have the opportunity to talk, and try to be honest to yourself, if this is the person that you want to spend the REST of your life with. In the end, don't make a decision out of fear, panic, or no better alternative. Because that short term satisfaction will lead to your long term doom and disatisfaction. And not to be a meep, but it is time to grow.

Best of luck, really.

Well lets see. You had some meep. But decided it was old and used to so you kicked it to the curb for some fresh meat. Than you realize that you suck at life and shouldn't go on any more and asked the old meat to come back. Now how would you expect her to feel after being thrown away? You really are stupid. Infact I am giving you the "I am an idiot" award for today. Wear it with pride :)

I agree with Acidburn, and I think I speak for all of us by stating that you should kill yourself on the internet.

AMIRITE?

I do love her...im absolutely crazy about her. Its not as simple as I got new meat or anything im really not like that, i fell into a pretty deep depression and made a lot of bad decisions. I didnt throw her away, I wish she could see that. The lack of friends really doesnt bother me, ive been alone most of my life and in a lot of ways prefer it. The only bad thing is that i dont have anyone to do talk to like this.

Shes my best friend, the best and worst thing thats ever happened to me. I dont dump my problems on her because i really dont have any other than money issues. It would have to be something pretty big in order for me to worry about it.

Thanks for the advice Big, that sounds like the sane and rational thing to do but i dont know if thats the right thing for me. Acidburn ive accepted said award and pair it fashionably with my meep of the Year dunce cap.

PREPARE FOR INTARWEB SEPPUKKU!

Remember what Dr. Dre said.

"meepes ain't meep but hoes and tricks."

Here here LK. I want to see a death today.

This will be fun, where to start....

"A couple weeks later I realized that i didn't even like this chick and didn't even know why i did what i did so i went back to my current gf."

This speaks loads about her self-image...the mere fact she took you back means you/her are doomed.

" This relationship means a lot to me, to the point where i put it ahead of myself and she did too before but that has changed dramatically."

This is called co-dependence. Good luck with that.

"Shes told me several times that shes really happy but is for one reason or the other pushing me away."

Maybe it has to do with you breaking up with her and meeping another girl? Just a hunch.

"...i don't want to break up again not after all i've put into this."

You are an idiot and she will be lucky to be rid of you, if you don't puss out.

"Am I being a whiny meep?"

YES.

Stop letting a <blink>useless meep</blink> control your emotions. Save that meep for a worthwhile woman. One that will lick your meep during blowjobs and wash the meepmarks out of your underpanties without even acknowledging that they were ever stained beyond belief. You want a woman who hates herself more than you.

This meep, if you stay with her, will cause you to spark up a web cam and kill yourself on the internet. (Please PM Vasudeva to set up a direct feed into LinkSwarm)

Hopefully you will use a bayonet and a claw hammer. Think outside the box, young'n.

Not to beat a dead horse, but....

"The only bad thing is that i dont have anyone to do talk to like this."

Is a good meeping reason to stop being some anti-social, maladjusted idiot. There is nothing wrong with wanting to be alone, but the fact that you have zero options in your social life should be a good wakeup call that you really need more in your life. You see, even if you have that special someone in your life, you really do need more than that. What happens when that special someone dies? You are now alone until you are buried in the ground.

So, get a clue, change your ways, because your life is going to be filled with tons of suck until you do.

I hope it all works out for you, but it appears that you have miles to go before you sleep and little indication that you are up for the journey. I do wish for your best and won't be watching your broadcast suicide, but I will donate for the circuit charges.

this kind of sounds like my old situation. i was with a girl for three years, moved in with her, etc. i broke up with her, even though it sucked meep and was difficult and i hated to see her in pain. i had to do it. i knew it wasn't going anywhere; i knew somehow that i couldn't marry her. whatever "it" is to me, she didn't have "it". i guess it was passion, it was fun, it was her ripping my clothes off or whateverthemeep.

but then i do realize that she had so many good things: she was very stable, she was never upset at me (even when i did mean or dumb meep), she never fought with me, she always laughed at my stupid jokes, she got along with all my friends.

i found that losing the meep wasn't the worst part, losing the intimacy wasn't the worst part, losing the reliability wasn't the worst part. it was that you find out that you lose your best friend. it sounds like maybe you've realized that.

i have to say: as soon as you can, you ought to split with her. others have said it before me, but don't you think she deserves better? meep, don't you deserve worse? (i say this as a person who does, in fact, deserve much worse, so no offense)

you will start to feel good about yourself in a few months and you will attract someone. it just will feel like meep for a little bit.

Just leave this window up next time she comes over, if that isn't clear enough for her then push her until she snaps and leaves you, then don't look back.

wotak, how did you do that flashing text? That's pretty cool.

Asking the Swarm for relationship advice is like allowing a hungry urban rat to gently nuzzle your nad sack.

From what I have read...

"Asking the Swarm for relationship advice is like allowing a hungry Dumbskull to gently nuzzle your nad sack."

Chomp, chomp, tear.

"Just leave this window up next time she comes over, if that isn't clear enough for her then push her until she snaps and leaves you, then don't look back."

This is absolutely the best advice offered in this entire thread. It so meeping good that I am compelled to ask the quoted why he (or she) isn't yet smart enough to VIEW>SOURCE.

Good luck with that useless meep, yo.