What IS happening?
As the human race progresses at an unprecented rate, toward either destruction or breakthrough, I find my personal outlook maybe being somewhat parallel to the human fiasco. For some unknown reason, I find myself almost constantly bound by fear. Not always, mind you, but i'd say a majority of the time. Why? Why? Why can't I get over this, why am I stuck in this predicament. I realize it, I KNOW IT, yet it would seem I can't do anything about it. Am I cursed? Is this what a curse is? To lay awake in bed, so meeping worried over complete nonsense that you can't go to sleep? To constantly have a little voice in the back of your head saying "you can't do this, you can't do anything". Frustration, insanity, release. A desperate man doing desperate things in order to end his desperation, further his separation, further his introversion, further his seclusion, further his delusions. A cycle, that starts and stops and starts again. I want off this funhouse of twisted mirrors where nothing is what it seems, but it's exactly how things are.
Laugh at will, my guts I've spilled......




Jan26 '02
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Fear is a natural reaction to reality. The trick is to contain the fear, let it guide you, and also remember: meep it.
"meep it" is the best medicine ever created.