After the last part, there was nothing but silence for a while.

I asked after about a week or so for a response, and still got none.

Monday, 3 weeks from the first big email, I pack up Haiku's things she had left at my place and put them in a box that once held some food that Haiku had given me when she returned from japan. I dropped it off on her doorstep during my lunch break.

That afternoon I sent out this email:


---start

Jason, your silence does nothing but confirm to me that I must be right. If I wasn't, it would have been easy for you to respond by now and prove otherwise. It's been what? 3 weeks? I figured I deserved a response by now.
I don't buy that you're too busy to reply - after all, this is your relationship we're talking about. Either that or you don't feel your relationship is important enough to care about.

Haiku, I care about you a great deal. But you've had over a month and a half since things were brought to light about us to Jason. I would think that you'd be able to communicate to him by now your unhappiness in your relationship and be able to do something about it. It hurts me to think you are there but unhappy; and you said you wanted to be with me, yet to me it feels like nothings being done about it. It gets harder and harder to wait every day.

I have a proposal for you both.

We all meet, with a 'moderator'. The moderator would be Waldo.
He's someone who knows both me and Jason and who I think we would both agree would be fair to everyone. He's in town only for two days - I've already mentioned it to him and he's willing to do it, but I'd still need to coordinate with him and hopefully he'll have time to do it.
I was going to mention this to Haiku last night when I tried calling, but she never answered.

You understand your immediate response is required - like I said we'll need to coordinate with Waldo and he's only in town for a brief time. That means we have to do this either tonight or tomorrow.

Prolonging the inevitable only makes things worse.

--end


and he responded:


---start

the reason I've not written back is that every time I think about you I get angry. I'm tired of being angry and after what you did you don't have the right to expect anything of me anyway. Show some remorse for what you did and it might be a little easier for me to communicate with you, but honestly, I don't want anything to do with you at the moment. As far as us all meeting or having a "mediator"... what for? I'm only interested in my relationship with Haiku. She's the most important person in my life. Finally things have calmed down between us, we understand what we mean to each other and are both considering each other in thinking about the future. Waldo is completely unrelated to anything, and I prefer it that way. You seem to have no idea the pain you've caused. You should be ashamed of yourself.

--end


my response:


---start

If this is the case, please have Haiku to tell me so as well. I will apologize and leave you both alone.

--end


Then I dwelled on it further, and decided, screw this. I called up Haiku midday on wednesday, and left a message telling her it was over and I didn't want to hear from her or Jason anymore, and to enjoy her life with her crazy boyfriend and his sociopatic ways.

after this, I notice Jason had sent this via IM a few hours prior to my call:

Jason: I'm not trying to start a chat, but just to let you know. I don't understand why an apology would depend on what Haiku has to say. You know how much pain you caused and I don't understand why that alone isn't enough to regret. It's not about what cards fall in your favor, and to me it just looks like you don't want to say anything that might admit fault or put you in a negative light. Pretending to be objective when your words and actions indicate only that you have an agenda only shows you to be untrustworthy, which you've already established. The issue shouldn’t be what you can get. The question is one of personal character and who you are as a human being.



The fucking End.